constant reminder.

Friday night I got a new tattoo. First one in over 2 years. And of course, like getting any tattoo, everyone wants to know the meaning behind it. So here goes my explanation. All of mine are planned thoroughly, and each one has a meaning. Since I got pregnant with Conner, I knew that I wanted to get one to represent my family. I also wanted one to represent my faith. So for two years now, I have thought it out. Then a few months ago, it popped into my head: a celtic knot. Not only would this knot represent my family and my faith, it would also represent my nationality. I chose the celtic love knot. It has a heart and the trinity symbol. But after 01APRIL2011, there was one more thing that I needed to represent: my miscarriage. How I chose to represent this was through a word. Once again sticking to my nationality, I chose the word 'misneach' which translates to 'courage'. Why courage? Simple. Because when I felt my weakest, I knew that I had to pull it from deep inside of me and carry on. Plus, one of my favorite prayers is the Serenity Prayer. The shortened version is:

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change;

the courage to change the things I can;

and the wisdom to know the difference.

I knew that if I could muster up that courage, I could be happy. I could see it for what it is, and I could move on knowing my angel is safe watching over us and one day we would be reunited. One of my favorite songs right now is 'Courage' by Orianthi (ft. Lacey from Flyleaf). The words are what got me through that whole ordeal. So now, every time I am feeling down, I just look at my wrist and I know it will all be alright.

Take all my vicious words
And turn them into something good
Take all my preconceptions
And let the truth be understood

Take all my prized possessions
Leave only what I need
Take all my pieces of doubt
And let me be what's underneath

Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway

We all have excuses why
Living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings
It's not how high he flies but the song he sings

Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway

It's not how many times you've been knocked down
It's how many times you get back up
Courage is when you've lost your way
But you find your strength anyway

Courage is when you're afraid
Courage is when it all seems gray
Courage is when you make a change
And you keep on living anyway

You keep on moving anyway
You keep on giving anyway
You keep on loving anyway

Love, Me.