just some late night ramblings.

I'm just sitting here on Facebook and I've just realized that the only picture I have with my best friend is not on here. Which means it was from a regular camera (shows how long we've been friends, I didn't even own a digital camera when we met!) and I have no idea where that picture might be. How sad. This just means I have to get another picture out of him while I am here. I'm sure that won't be hard to do. If he ever gets a freaking day off from work again so we can hang out. I miss the hell out of him. I miss the old days. We still talk to each other pretty much every day, but ughhh. Soon I have to go back to El Paso and then he's off to Indiana to finish the rest of his college, then who knows. :( I know the distance doesn't mean a thing for our friendship. I just wish I could be around him more.

I only have two weeks left here. I mean, we're coming back in August for a week and some days, but still. The past 3 weeks have just flown by. This upcoming week I have jam packed with seeing people and I am attempting to do the same for the week after. I really hate being so far from everyone. I hate that I can only see them once or twice a year. Oh well, that's the Army way of life. Boo.

I only have 3 more sections to do for this pharmacy technician course. Then I have to sign up to take the exam. I'm honestly starting to wonder if I am even going to do anything with it. It wasn't my first choice on a career. It's kind of sad seeing all of my friends graduating from college when I haven't even went. I messed up my entire life by dropping out of high school. All because I wanted to party and live it up. God, I was so stupid. If I have any regrets at all, that is my biggest one. My second one would be not going to college. 22 years and what have I got to show for myself? Not a damn thing. I mean, I have Conner, but still.

There are literally hundreds of things going through my head right now. Some of them I can't bring myself to write here. This is a very pointless post. Just one to get some things out of my head. I deleted a bunch of people from Facebook again. I hate when people add you and never talk to you. Although I am sometimes guilty of it. There I go being a hypocrite again. Ugh. 

RJA song stuck in my head. Nothing unusual. Usually happens when I start thinking about my best friend. Yes, I have a song with my best friend. I might be lame, but oh well. I love it. I can feel my heart beating in my throat. Weird. And it's really hot in this room. I'm going to give up thinking tonight.. ha, because that can happen.

Love, Me.